Dear Kurt Cobain,

It was 6 in the morning of Thursday. I woke up early than usual. Had my breakfast at my auntie's house, everybody in the so called home is still sleeping so I left and walked to the terminal. I was riding a UV and I saw the sunlight touches my fair skin of my right arm, I bring out my phone in my bag and turn the music on so I can comfortably sleep because it will took me an hour and a half to get to work.

I always find myself listening to your song whenever I am, wherever I am. When I'm sad, when I feel lost or just tired of the days rushing through me like I'm some ghost. I dont know... maybe you're my escape. It made me realize that it's okay to be vulnerable, misjudged and misunderstood sometimes. I listen to your song "Lithium" which is my most fave of all your songs. Maybe I love how you express yourself in your music like somehow I can relate. Doesn't mean that I do drugs. But when the song said "Im so lonely but that's okay" and maybe I'm the one to blame for all I've heard. It hit me really hard. You said that your bad relationships in the past inspired you to wrote that song. Everybody experienced those things at some point in their lives. Your music sounds like there's too much inside you. Maybe even you couldn't get it all out. Maybe that's why you died.

Today marks the 25th year of your death. According to the news, you were found dead on April 8, 1994 at your home at Seattle. Beside your dead body is a suicide note that police believed you wrote before you shot your head with a shotgun. Its cliche how the song Lithium says "I love you, Im not gonna crack" but you did.

You sang all the feelings that people are afraid to admit. Even me, maybe that's why I love listening to your songs whenever I'm sad, cold, alone and unseen in the busy, hyperventilating world of adults.

Love,

Eya