I've been thinking about for the past two months. I was turning a year older and suddenly it felt real. I'm getting older.
In fact, I never felt like numbers knew me and as years pass by, we seem to grow even more distant, unsure of how we really, truly fit. Does anyone have a manual of being here? I see engagements, weddings and even babies on my feed. And I can't help but feel left out sometimes. But whenever I asked myself, the truth is, no matter how I look at it, I'm happy here. Where I am, doing what I'm doing, single, little confused, kid at heart, I wouldn't have it any other way.
On my birthday, I woke up early than usual. I spent my birthday at La Union chasing the waves. I realized the best thing I want to give myself were peace and freedom.
I tried something new this year. Yes, I choose to celebrate my birthday alone at La Union away from chaotic scene of the city where I live and work. This is all new to me. I used to celebrate with friends partying and gigs. But this year, ,my mind, body and soul craves for peace. A need to breathe. Free myself from all the deadlines and chores which is adulting. For years, I've been busy doing what a 27-year old should do in order to survive, I forgot to see the sun between the clouds.
So this year, I lose myself, made myself one with nature, and do not worry about anything.
Love,
Eya
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